I'm sorry if this hurts really badly...

I have always been the straightforward person, for your info... straight to the point and it always hurts really much when i speak the truth for the truth really hurts...

forgive me if i have ever been so direct that I have left u in a big mess of confusion.. i have never meant it that way.

I have dropped tears when my previous clique no longer clicked because of her... I have been in the middle of a tug of war by the people involved of the dispute... I hated the way she handled things but yet I was not strong enough to tell her off... for the two huge incidents that happened with her, I saw a trend with the both of them... i tried to stop things from happening but things just happened way too fast...

I said things to you not out to put her in bad light but to explain my own actions.. i stated that very clearly even before i said anything... but yet whatever I have said makes her the victim and me the devil..who has been the one who is trying hard to make peace by asking the group out, asking her out? I believe we all have eyes to see... I am stubborn in my own sense and she is stubborn in her own..

The incidents of you forgetting to let me know the plans, the emails and other stuff, they are all not coincidental... i believe my own instincts... the different things that she tells me and you, the excuses she gave me... I can see with my own eyes... but yet, the most disappointing one is you... your actions betray you and it made me regret my decision to tell you things about her... I took you as a friend and I came with a mindset that I want to have a supportive group of friends rather than some group that meets only on the weekends.. step outside the situation and you will realise what is happening..

be patient, i tell myself... someday I will be right and the truth will be out... yet as much as i want to, i try to warn you.. if you choose to ignore the warning signs.. then be it.. i shall just shut up... i will be slowly moving out of this group if she cannot stand my presence.. if she feels threatened... cos i know too much of her history and too much of her deepest thoughts....