I was wondering whether to do this post or not... cos I thought about a lot of things.. prob one of those times where i am truly in my deepest thoughts.. thinking about my future, my life, my past 25 years and all sorts of things that happened recently in my life....
I think if I were to see what I really wanted to achieve during the past one yr, I have achieved almost everything I wanted...
1. Get out of HP- done
2. Love myself more- erm, somewhat done...
3. Get myself out more often ie. exercise- erm, once or twice in the yr? ok, it's a no...
4. Spend more time with my family and babies-check
Nothing great like climbing the corporate ladder or reaching SGD8000 of pay.. something more towards myself.. for myself, to concentrate on knowing myself... I guess it has paid off... I know my own reactions better and know why I react that way, know when to be utterly honest with myself rather than deceiving myself...
In this past one yr, I've managed to move out of HP although I have always felt I couldn't cos my job is so restricted and the stuff I learn can only apply to HP.. of cos I had my own fears when I rejected internal transfers or temp jobs with them. Well, let's just say I am at the greener pastures now....
Sometime prior to my birthday, I had lost a friend, a close one I would say... but let's just say, I had learnt my lesson well enough to distinguish who is going to hurt me and who will be the ones who will be there for me... although, it was painful but I still manage... no tears in the office like I used to, not letting the issue affect my work and stuff... to be honest, I still miss him... although this yr's birthday, i wish very much for him to be around me, i know it will not happen... but knowing is one thing, hoping is another... i would still wake up in the middle of the night to check my phone to see if he has sent me a msg, i would still hope my phone would show his no, i still hope to receive his emails and clear up the whole misunderstanding... but i know it is not going to happen.. so goodbye XX... thanks for being in my life for that short one yr plus...
But what really made me happy is that this past one yr, i have made effort to spend more time with my friends and family... sun are usually spent at home with my family and my babies... and boy boy seems to know that mommy will be home on sun to pat him to sleep and hug him when he wakes up... meow is also able to sleep on the same bed with us, which is a good sign... managed to talk to my mom and brothers more... last time, work took up all my time.. and come sundays, i'll be out for shopping or my own activities with CWS that I was hardly even home for dinner... but now, i'm home for dinner every sun unless friends really need me to be out...
the coming yr, i hope to be debt free, get a stable job, and start my savings again... hopefully the coming one yr would be better for me....
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