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sometimes i'm just so tired of classes.. tired of exams, assignments and all sorts... esp when you have thousand and one thing to do and the last thing you ever want to do is to be seated in class and not out there completing the stuff u wanna do...

started on my new job and already i feel overwhelmed.. days pass by rather quickly when you're at work.. you do a lot of research, you spend time formatting word documents, spend time correcting your english grammer and worried that i fall short of expectations... although learning new things is a good experience and a total different industry... *well, not really new*, the feeling of self is not that good over there if you know what i mean... you lose your self in work and sometimes i dunno what am i doing anymore.. i just do bcos it is done this way..

class started again this week.. new lecturer, new notes, new textbooks, but basically same pool of shit still happens to be there... like cramped schedules, lots of assignments, exams, tests... but of cos, there are nice classmates, some of which have left the course but yet still kept in touch... classmates make the course more bearable.. but hopefully the rest of the stuff does not fizzle out the passion for events... i have absolutely no wish to go back to the corporate world... with makeup and all sorts.. all the pretentious socialising... i like to be myself...

coming back to class also brings back memories of something that cannot and will not happen due to some other factors... somethings are just not meant to be i guess...