Christmas Wish List

Every year I would try to buy something for myself for Christmas... cos I love Christmas a whole lot and after a whole year of hard work, I felt I deserve something for myself... being a scrooge on myself, I will usually buy things that I have been eyeing for the past one year and never could persuade myself to get it...

The year before, I got myself the pair of earrings which I loved so much but couldn't part with the cash to pay for it... Last year, I bought the knitwear from Marks and Spencer which cost
me forty bucks... and this year, I've been eyeing on the crumpler messenger bag... The first time I set my eyes on them was when Lillian stepped into the shop to find a laptop bag for her new job... and I saw their line of messenger bags which I couldn't take my eyes off it.... Somedays I'll walk past the shop and take a peek but not stepping into the shop... their bags to me, cost a crazy figure and it's something which at this point in time, I do not have the buying power to get... till I get my first solid paycheck, till I am more stablized I tell myself... I will get it myself... it is something for myself.... it is proof that i can finally afford it...

Anyway, I went out with myself today... one of those days which I do not have exams, deadlines or anything to settle... I went down to Square 2 to pick up my jeans.. sent them for altering at the shop and haven't picked them up for ages... Window shopped a bit before heading to the National Library to return my books... A little sense of accomplishment cos I managed to finish my library books on time despite the schoolwork and ever crazy events going on.... Wanted to head down to visit Malcolm at Youthpark... he's painting rubbish bins there for a cause... but I needed to rush home for dinner cos Xaviar is coming over so I told him I'll come by tomorrow... maybe during my lunch.. maybe after my event...

Before going home, stopped by the pet shop to pick up Meow's can food... dun wish to leave it till last min, it's gonna be xmas and new yr... supplies might be low, i'm not sure.. guess what... even pet food have increased in price... and it's by a crazy S$6 per carton!!!!! Goodness!!! Went home and bitch with meow meow and all she could do was to give me the bochup(couldn't be bothered) look... bah!!! so much for loving her!

As I sat in my newly decorated room, I wondered what happened during the past one yr... all of us have grown up a lot more, some of us have soared in our careers, some of us have switched careers like me... I ask myself if the wishes that I secretly want to accomplish by the year end have been fulfilled... partly yes and no... yes because i have found my direction in life and moved onto the career i want to be in... no because i still haven't found somebody to share my life with, still haven't learnt how to drive, how to speak korean... carol asked me the other day if i really wanted to go into events and put my bf finding mission on hold... i said simply that he should be able to accept my choice of career and support me instead of being needy about the amount of time we're meeting... i dun wish to be the one sitting around waiting for him to bring me out, neither do i want him to be waiting... we should all have our own careers...

Next week is gonna be another crazy week... 7 events happening at the same time... two weeks in a row... i'll be at 1 and only be back in the office on wed... hopefully things dun accumulate too much...