Waiting...

Holding a cup of coke light and waiting... waiting for you to finish your telecon... waiting for you to tell me what happened... waiting and more waiting...

i realise that in our lives, we spend a lot of time waiting... waiting for bus, waiting for lunch, waiting for ppl, waiting for all sorts of things... maybe some of us who are impatient will spend only 1/4 of our lives waiting while others who are more patient will spend 1/2 of their lives waiting... how sad is that?

I remember this incident where BK and I were waiting for the rest, we commented that we might have spent almost 1/8 of our lives waiting for the gang... * feeling guilty or not?!*

anyway, these days i've been easily irritated... not due to some relative visiting.. but prob just some little eruption...

A particular Mr Sharma said his plans to come here for xmas have been cancelled and said I would be relieved as he is not coming over... knowing full well that he is frustrated over the auditors, i didn't make a big fuss out of it, i still felt upset... what he didn't know is that i made plans to bring him around, i changed the start date of my new job to make sure i had enough time for him cos i knew i had a school event on friday night... oh well... and then these days we hardly even talk cos he's so busy with the auditors... and just now he said he'll talk after the call, never did.. at least up till now...

work is rather irritating now... most of my colleagues have gone on long leave... most of their work fall onto me and another colleague... a lot of things to do but too little time... unexpected things come along and i have to juggle stuff... it's a learning process but sometimes it gets irritating... it's different from all the past jobs that i have taken... this time round u need to do more, u need to plan your own schedule... there's no meetings, no follow up, it's based on your own instincts and initiative...

these days my little nephew comes over during the day.. then a lot more things appear at home.. diapers, sterilizers, bath tubs, little gloves,his baby cot, all over the place... my little sactuary seems a lot smaller and my two babies seem to be a lot more grumpy due to the lack of attention... i think i wanna find time to sort my room out... so messy... irritating me...

xmas is coming and i haven't had time to do my xmas shopping with my limited cash.. think no need to do liao... just sit and wait and see how many presents i get w/o giving out a single one... but i wanna go shopping... bah... how self contradicting is that!!

however, things are looking up i guess... carol's inviting me to her friend's xmas party... hui is asking me to go for a musical... so prob this xmas might be easier to pass w/o Mr Sharma.... astrology says i'll be able to meet somebody really nice these two weeks so cross my fingers....

sigh... maybe it's late in the night... i'm missing Cubie... miss chatting with her... she say she's busy with moving house and decorating xmas tree... bah! miss seeing the kids... basically miss her crap lah...like her "shi ne", "bish bish" and most importantly, her " I love JIN!!!!!!" *although till now i still dunno why, but i guess it's the same as why I like Rain and LJK*

ok.. gotta go to bed... got tonnes to do tomorrow...

*update* still no reply from Mr Sharma....