Understanding...

I met a friend for a simple dinner this evening... had simple food, did simple things like shopping and just checking things out.. and even hanging around pasar malams... while we usually hang out in a big bunch, this time it is just me and him.. and i told him specifically not to tell the rest... he asked why would i want to make it so secretive... i told him i just wanted to have a peaceful dinner...

of cos, that kind of answer just got more probing... recently, we had a conversation about why i wanted to leave my old company when i am not even a yr there... and of cos, everybody was against the idea and then examples of some successful ppl in the same industry were brought up and about how they plan for their career and how much money they were getting... blah blah blah...yeah, ppl plan their lives, use strategies to get to another stage of their lives and they know wat they are doing... in comparison, i dun seem to know what i am doing... so the conversation went onto how i didn't know what kind of environment it is now and blah blah blah.... during that whole conversation, i was just not bothered to share my plans with them cos i knew they wouldn't be bothered to listen, maybe what they really wanna hear is something else... after the whole conversation was over, i kinda realised that maybe friends do become expired friends... being in a different environment really sets ppl apart... maybe their concerns are different from mine... in events, it's truly your experience that counts, not some master degree... unless u're in govt agencies that is... rather than using the time to study, i would rather use them to create better events.. and such things do not require a master degree... some professions will require u to while others dun... i dunno, after that conversation, i felt as if i was compared to somebody else and not seen as an individual... i felt as if even if i sincerely said i wanted to meet them after i finish the job, they didn't believe... what else is there for me to say?

which is why i decided not to call the rest and just meet this friend of mine alone... with him, i know i wouldn't be subjected to such things... i can just be myself... all i need is just some understanding, is that difficult?