For you..

" Never knew when did the comfort between the two of us crept into our lives" N.S

I remembered this line you said so clearly... cos this is the first time you expressed to me how comfortable you are with me, despite the fact that we are miles apart...it made me wonder too, how did such things happen....

soon, we knew more about each other's personal lives and including her...looking back, maybe knowing her existence was bad... but through her eyes, i saw how much you changed for her, how much you loved her... but yet, when I knew her heart changed, I felt she was wrong.. i felt you were too good to be missed... which is why i advised her to think carefully again..

when you were mulling over your breakup with her, it pains me to see you that way... i stayed late at work to chat with you, to keep u company.. just to let you know that you have a friend here when you needed to talk..that is my way of concern for a friend...

i was happy when you picked yourself up, moved on with your life and looked forward to our trip... planning the trip was like the highlight of the day for me... friends said i was mad, family said no but i didnt care, i just wanted to go and meet this friend i had known for so long...

i remembered for a period of time, we had telepathy... we knew when to come online to speak to each other, when to msg each other at the same time.. something incredible for me... yet...

she had to come back into our lives and test our friendship... i knew there was no way out of this... trust was a tough thing for me, esp after being betrayed by close friends... indeed, we failed... we failed to speak more to each other to clarify, we failed to understand each other more, we failed to see each other in one's shoes...

i dun even know if you will read this...but since that day, i haven't been sleeping well... in office and in front of friends, though i dun wish to talk, i have to keep up with a happy front as if nothing happened... cubie seems to have even given up on you... but i'm hanging on.. for an answer... cos i know better... cos i wanted to give you a chance to explain things... i wanted to hear your side of the story...i'm waiting...