I spoke to MC today... we never spoke in depth... spoke of our basic requirements of a working environment... i just wanted some place that dun need me to be part of office politics.. some place that let me complete my job and dun bother me with anything else... he said it was gonna be tough on me cos every working place has politics.. the only difference is whether it bothers you or not...
what he said was true... i'm not the kind to fight for promotions... i'm contented being in the background working.... i dun yearn for fame or high ranks... i just like to be known as somebody who is friendly and always cheerful in the office...
another friend spoke to me one two days ago... told me that she didn;t like the place she is working in.. told me that her situation couldn't be as bad as hers... at that moment, i felt nobody understood me...
on my way home, i thought of you... you have gone missing from my life for some time already... all these while, i felt you were gonna be back like those old times... u just needed to work yourself crazy.. get wasted somewhere.. release your built up frustrations and you will be back... mabel said you have yet to call her... but you have called to talk to uncle and auntie.. maybe this is gonna take a while more.. just a while longer than the rest of the times...all of us understand.. we all love you and we all understand...
suddenly, i felt that i needed you by my side now.. right away.. because without you, i wouldn't know what to do with politics.. because without you, i wouldn't know if i am listening to myself or others more...because without you, i wouldn't know who to trust wholeheartedly... because without you, i am really without a listening ear... you're the one who talk sense into me, talks to my heart and lets me listen to you... come back soon... i miss talking to you... even if it is just silence... let me tell you what has been happening to me on this side of the world.. let me know what new things you have experienced in that side of the world...
mabel called me the other day and said she wasn;t sure if you were coming back at all... it's her first time experiencing this with you... i told her it's like the nth no of time to me already.. but i told her jokingly, you must be having your mid life crisis.. that's why this is taking you so long... i know she is worried... very worried in fact... no one woman can wait indefinitely... so come back soon.. i know you love her too much to lose her...
baby, like the way i used to tell you when we were together many yrs ago... i love you and always will.... i'm keeping my part of the deal, are you?
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