Sorry that i haven't been blogging for such a long time...
i havent been in a good mental mode to blog...
i've been having mental block...
too many things have been happening and i really just wish to be alone..
so which is why, i started to go out on my own...
spend time with myself...
i just came back with a friend for coffee...
we spoke about the expensive dinners i had due to work entertainment
of cos, he's impressed...
"wow, sounds like u are doing well" he said..
but i know the truth, ever since i got converted, i wasn't happy...
i'm recognised for organising events
put down for my non-deliverance of my work
non existence in my boss's eyes
i felt my tiny bit of self esteem gone...
gone with the wind...
"stay with the job lah, why u keep hopping?" he asks
because i feel there is no value add anymore in my case
because i feel no more passion about the job i am doing
because i do not feel that i am a part anymore...
"follow your heart, go with what you want" another friend tells me
she heard me cry over the phone over this issue
how unhappy i am in the job
how office politics were stifling me
how talking to others fell to deaf ears
although money is important for survival
but money cannot buy happiness
so cliche i know..
but it's true
simple pleasures give you happiness
not a huge fat bank account when you can't have the time to spend it
"follow me" my heart tells me
"do something that truly makes you happy,
we will get by eventually"
I will follow you... =)
2 comments:
Isn't it hard to "follow your heart"?? I know in my circumstances it is. It's terrible. Maybe I'm too much of a ppl pleaser. I just find it hard to know what I want to do....maybe I'll post on my blog tonight...you never know!
i know what you mean. am also trying to follow my heart, but it's easier said than done.
well, i guess a good compromise will be to strike a balance bah... ie. you may not find passion in work, find it somewhere else! like "volunteering", new hobby?
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