Leaving something behind is never easy...

If life is a race, then i should be the runner who keeps looking behind as if I have something left behind... this is what I feel now... i have a few races within my huge life race now... career race, school race...

I just signed a new contract last night.. with another company doing market research.. it's a new beginning.. just like it was with each job.. but leaving this current one is not as easy as I thought it would be. I've always told myself that I am only gonna be here for three months, do not need to get too attached to the people here, do not need to feel anything for the job cos I'm a temp, just do, get the money and go... now after 2 months of long, tiring hours, persistent fights with the big bosses and eventually to managing the officers who are of a different group of ppl altogether from me, it seems even tougher to leave. This place has built a better me, taught me how to close my ears and just hear what I want to hear sometimes, taught me about policy making and the problems they face and most importantly, they taught me how to communicate with people who are just not my cup of tea... you may not even see these people in the corporate world cos they might not survive... i chose to stay for another week because I felt I wanted to finish whatever that I have started- the briefings. I wanted to conclude my stint here with one last briefing for the hospital. I also felt that I didn't want my boss to be suddenly doing this alone by herself when she already has a lot on her plate... i will be leaving this behind me but bringing a better ME over to the new environment...

While school has been something that I look forward, I have also my own set of frustrations.. working with team mates who simply do not work as a team, classmates dropping out like dead houseflies... Class is getting smaller and I regret not chatting up with some of them before they left... and some of those that left is not due to the lack of interest but due to other stupid reasons that shouldn't have been there in the first place. If this is truly a race, those classmates are falling behind and I really hope that there is a way that I could grab all if not some of them and let them continue the same race with me, afterall, our end point is not that far... persist, i tell myself, there is no turning back... going against the traffic will kill you...