Long tuesday night

It's been a long tuesday night in my own room... i took the time to look back at how have things been and realised how stupid i have been...right here waiting doesn't seem to have any significance anymore... just as i was still waiting for some dinner to finish, some phone to ring, gary called me...

we talked for a long while.. he heard my part of the story and my concerns which somebody else never heard... i cannot say i'm right but i just wanted to get my concerns and questions across yet it is so difficult... gary asked me this simple question: "why dun you tell him you want to speak to him?" i did... but it doesn't seem to get across to him... in fact, he was the one who told me to tell him if i ever needed anything from him... "ask and you shall be given"

gary told me to persist if i can still foresee the future with this guy... i dunno... what if i can foresee but we're not on the same page? still dun work out in the end... gary tells me to take it slow and steady... he cited me incidents that happened to both of us when we were together, tells me my weaknesses... yes, he understands me best and he sees things from a rational side... maybe it is good to take things slow and steady...

i fell asleep in my little couch while waiting for the phone to ring... till now at 8.00am, it still hasn't... oh well, what you ask for does not necessarily mean it will be given i guess...