When money rolls...

Got the news from my sister in law that my second brother is in huge debts... so much that lawyer letters are coming... and he has gotten to a stage where he has filed for bankruptcy... at first when i heard it, it's a shock..although i know he is in debt, it always appears to me that things are getting better with the new job he is holding... i started to worry how my parents would take it once they know the news... they have always doted on my second brother, felt that he was their pride and joy... now such things happen.. i dunno how it will affect them... money wise, things are not gonna change much.. once i get a proper job after my internship, things should be better....

after seeing my brother at home, taking as if nothing has ever happened, i'm starting to think to myself, if he himself does not even worry, who am i to worry? afterall, i have already asked my mom to withdraw all my fixed deposit to pass to him, hopefully, it helps in one way or another...

but knowing my brother, he will choose to keep everything to himself and then let the whole world worry for him... if not when you ask him if he is doing alright, he will tell you his favourite phrase, " why you bother?" i wonder why he and my dad are all like that... they refused to ask for help when they need to and then think they are almighty and can handle all sorts of issues by themselves...

sometimes, looking at myself, i think i am like that as well... i refuse to ask for help although i know i will get help with a snap of a finger... which is why sometimes i wish for somebody to just do nothing but listen to me... no need to offer help... no need to pity me but just listen without any judgement.... everyone would have their fair share of judgement and how i should go about doing things... but they fail to realise, all i need is just a listening ear...

with my brother, i dunno what to do... he chose to go for bankruptcy at the time where i am learning to pick myself up... all i can do is to spend more time at home.. pamper my parents much more cos i think they will be more heartbroken than any of us siblings...