Reflections

* typed this sometime last fri and somehow, i closed it without publishing it.. bah! so here is goes again *

It's one of those rainy nights where i can sit in my store room and in my armchair, complete with a warm drink, cushion from cubie and bear bear from shushu... boy boy is seated on the carpet next to me and grooming himself...

it's been almost two months since i left symantec... till now, there has been no regrets.. at first, i had a job at cisco... but i left too... wandered for about a week before i found a job with the local ministry.. temp position though...

it's been long since i left the govt sector... i remember leaving it and telling myself that i cannot survive long in the govt sector cos i dun like the way the aunties are laid back, ppl take their own sweet time to solve issues and even identify issues... i simply dun fit in.... corporate world and govt are entirely different ball games...

this ministry i'm working with is rather backward.. still using floppy disks and huge crt monitors, forms are manual.. a lot of things are manual... typical ppl who are just working to while their time away and they have been there since god knows when... i'm doing a lot of data management stuff for them, managing the project stats for them, getting the numbers they want to see... of cos, i liaise with the various institutions for approvals of all sorts of stuff.. it's a variety of jobs compared to what we do in the corporate world where we are specialised to one portion of the work...

hours are long here but i guess i learn a lot of things... how to manage ppl of different calibre, different backgrounds, see things from different perspective... i dun really mind other than the fact that i do get tired by the end of the day and i dun even feel like going out at all... as of last record, it's been like 2 weeks since i even met anybody properly... plus i have school.. it makes it all the more difficult...

you know, because of the fact that i can hardly meet ppl, shushu, shan and raymond came all the way from suntec to meet me in toa payoh for lunch... i was so touched to see them and the moment i saw them i wanted to hug them really close cos though it has only been a short while since i last saw them, but seeing them put in the effort to meet up for lunch really made me realise how much i missed them....

in symantec, the most important thing i learnt was teamwork... shushu and shan taught me how to work with your teammates, back to back and with firearms pointing out to ppl who are trying to shoot us down... we look out for each other and we support each other whenever we feel lost and disillusioned.. although i was the weakest link, they were still willing to teach me stuff and handhold me when i really need help... shan was also somebody whom i was really glad to have met in symantec... she was the one who brought me around on my first day, linked me up with the various colleagues in the company and also shared my joys when i got converted as well as my woes when i realised i didn't fit in there anymore... she was truly a good tac team for me...

talking about school, course started for almost a month now and things are going on fine... although a lot of assignments and exams are almost on every two weeks, new things learnt kept me going... of course i do question if i will ever make it till the end, whether this is the right path for me...well, this is what i say to myself... " unreasonableness is my strongest trait, so trudge on. "