Christmas Wish List

Every year I would try to buy something for myself for Christmas... cos I love Christmas a whole lot and after a whole year of hard work, I felt I deserve something for myself... being a scrooge on myself, I will usually buy things that I have been eyeing for the past one year and never could persuade myself to get it...

The year before, I got myself the pair of earrings which I loved so much but couldn't part with the cash to pay for it... Last year, I bought the knitwear from Marks and Spencer which cost
me forty bucks... and this year, I've been eyeing on the crumpler messenger bag... The first time I set my eyes on them was when Lillian stepped into the shop to find a laptop bag for her new job... and I saw their line of messenger bags which I couldn't take my eyes off it.... Somedays I'll walk past the shop and take a peek but not stepping into the shop... their bags to me, cost a crazy figure and it's something which at this point in time, I do not have the buying power to get... till I get my first solid paycheck, till I am more stablized I tell myself... I will get it myself... it is something for myself.... it is proof that i can finally afford it...

Anyway, I went out with myself today... one of those days which I do not have exams, deadlines or anything to settle... I went down to Square 2 to pick up my jeans.. sent them for altering at the shop and haven't picked them up for ages... Window shopped a bit before heading to the National Library to return my books... A little sense of accomplishment cos I managed to finish my library books on time despite the schoolwork and ever crazy events going on.... Wanted to head down to visit Malcolm at Youthpark... he's painting rubbish bins there for a cause... but I needed to rush home for dinner cos Xaviar is coming over so I told him I'll come by tomorrow... maybe during my lunch.. maybe after my event...

Before going home, stopped by the pet shop to pick up Meow's can food... dun wish to leave it till last min, it's gonna be xmas and new yr... supplies might be low, i'm not sure.. guess what... even pet food have increased in price... and it's by a crazy S$6 per carton!!!!! Goodness!!! Went home and bitch with meow meow and all she could do was to give me the bochup(couldn't be bothered) look... bah!!! so much for loving her!

As I sat in my newly decorated room, I wondered what happened during the past one yr... all of us have grown up a lot more, some of us have soared in our careers, some of us have switched careers like me... I ask myself if the wishes that I secretly want to accomplish by the year end have been fulfilled... partly yes and no... yes because i have found my direction in life and moved onto the career i want to be in... no because i still haven't found somebody to share my life with, still haven't learnt how to drive, how to speak korean... carol asked me the other day if i really wanted to go into events and put my bf finding mission on hold... i said simply that he should be able to accept my choice of career and support me instead of being needy about the amount of time we're meeting... i dun wish to be the one sitting around waiting for him to bring me out, neither do i want him to be waiting... we should all have our own careers...

Next week is gonna be another crazy week... 7 events happening at the same time... two weeks in a row... i'll be at 1 and only be back in the office on wed... hopefully things dun accumulate too much...

Meeting with Mr Martian..

After weeks of missing each other due to our busy schedules, mr martian and i finally met up for our usual coffee session... he had planned to meet me at 830pm.. but as usual, it was pushed back till 930... for one moment, i thought it's gonna be a cancelled thingy again...

Mr Martian had been travelling a fair bit due to work and we updated each other with so and so getting married, having a new fling, changed new jobs, coping with jobs etc... then Mr Martian suddenly realised that he hasn't collected money for andy's and my birthday present.. well, i told him it's been a disappointing time of the year esp birthdays cos since I stopped initiating the birthday present thingy, everybody seems to have forgotten... and it happens usually around my birthday.. tsk tsk tsk...

then i said, " i think we can be prepared to celebrate xmas separately this yr"... "HUH?!" was his reply... came as a shock to me cos he is usually the one with lots of plans and I'm the one who will always be at home listening to " Have yourself a merry little xmas" on my lappy... This yr, Nitin said he wanted to come over but since Deepavali, there has been no sound no picture from him.. so i assume it's off.. so I shall be singing xmas carols with my two little fellas at home...

then on my way home, i thought about xmas presents.. what should i get for xmas presents this yr?who should i give to? All the time, i believed that xmas is the season of giving...but judging from the comments i got, i realised that my genuine love for giving is just plain waste of money... i remembered one of my friend who got one of my handmade present said, " i dunno what to do with this leh!" and then some other friends gave me presents which simply tells me that they didn't even think about what to get.. just found something that happened to be lying around the house or was a free gift and wrapped it up and chucked it to me... i've gotten things like moisturiser that used to be bundled as a free gift.. the label was still on the moisturiser packaging.. and i've also got this really "auntie" bag from a friend who claimed that it's really expensive and was the latest fashion in Japan... well, the bag USED to be expensive and USED to be a fashion in Japan many years ago... the poor bag showed signs of mould... what else can I say? Although I love bags, I dun just take in ALL bags... so after all those lessons, this yr i finally decided, i shall just give presents to those whom will love the presents i got them.. i'm not gonna be bothered with scrooges who dun want to spend money once a yr on a worthy friend... In local terms we call them Kiam Ka Na....

oh well, shall play by ear.. shall update soon!