absolutely worn out...

too much stuff is going on these few days... too much stuff to plan for and to worry about.. been giving me a whole lot of problems... feeling really under the weather... not getting enough rest and all.. yet in front of colleagues, family and friends, i have to appear normal and not worn out....

did i say anything about the new portfolio that i was offered at work? i did... things dun turn out what i wanted it to be... my boss whom i thought was supportive of me all the while turned out not to be that way now... too many people were talking to me, telling me what i should be telling the other parties and what i should stand firm on... come on, i'm not a kid anymore... if i am overloaded I will speak up for myself.. justify for myself...i dun need people to tell me what my priorities are.. and all the more i dun need ppl to fight over me... the scene that i got from the three of you standing there and deciding whether I should take it or what the other boss should know really puts me off cos I am standing there but yet I have no rights to say anything... i hate it when people decide my stuff for me... be it in an office environment or personally.. i know what i want and so let me decide....

the store moving is this coming sat... i dun have the volunteers to help and in the end, i have to get movers... wanted to save money by getting the volunteers to help but in the end, had to fork out more money to get movers.. and we cannot decide on the quotation and the budget... sheesh.... cannot shift it to next week cos there's event at scotts and it's gonna be really messy!!!! wrote the email out to dawn... after sending it, it felt like i was blaming her for suggesting to shift next week... shit... still no reply.... is she really angry? never saw dawn get angry though... maybe i should send her an sms and hopefully she will reply... me and my big mouth.... just tell her no lor... say so much for what?sigh.....

the same friend who said she is going to shanghai for a year is now going to taiwan for at least half a yr... need to get the collage done... last minute again... so much rubbish in my brain how to make a nice collage... if it doesn't come out nice, dun scream at me.. you guys never gave me a forewarning...

absolutely tied down with a whole lot of stuff... went for my kickboxing class last night and boy, it was a relieve to be able to vent out the frustrations.. but then again... my opponent kept moving away... i understand that.. she's a beginner and she couldn't hold the shield well enough... but when the instructor held the shield, i hit it with all my might... techniques still need some modification but yet still quite a good way to relieve... esp with so much happening... me and my friend went to glutton square to eat... my god, there's so many people even at 10 plus.... nearly couldn't find a table to eat... managed to share table with a couple... got fried oyster omelette and chicken wings.. soooo oily!!!!! then so expensive... chicken wings were those that were frozen and had frozen blood in the bones... yucks..... i had actually not noticed it but friend told me about it... so kept looking at it..... yucks!

anyway, we all went home at about 1130... tired and more tired....