Rants....

Rant 1:

This morning, a friend or rather an ex friend of mine I tried contacting has changed her phone number and given me a phony new address...maybe i should have seen it coming.... she owes me money and she simply disappeared.. been dragging this matter for some time.. so now that she has totally disappeared, i can close the matter by saying that money has been lost underneath the sea... ultimately i believe that the Lord will provide... to me, if money can be earned again, then it is really not a huge problem...

Rant 2:

While vaccuming my keyboard this afternoon, my key for the number 8 got sucked into the dirt bag.. now there is a hole in my number pad.... darn!

Rant 3:

One of my friends recently had a break up with her bf.. every girl would be upset...when she met up with me, she was crying her eyes out and questioning how is she gonna survive without her bf.. that's normal... that's how every girl would think... however, having gone thru the same thing two yrs back, i remember the mistakes i made with my ex and tried to remind her of the various things that i went through...being soft with her didn't work, being harsh with her didn't work... in the end, she went to talk to many other more ppl and she felt the things they said made sense... and the point is, that's the exact same thing i said... i felt by sharing experiences would make her life easier... but in the end, it felt as if i was being harsh to her... imagine the same friend two yrs back, told me that getting over a break up is such a easy matter and that at that point in time, it was not a good time to have a break up cos exams were round the corner... it's as if i had a choice.... while i wanted her to be by my side to comfort me, she was not there... i dunno... sometimes i wonder how did i ever managed to feel so upset about my uncle's passing in the morning and in the afternoon, i can be out with her and act as if nothing has ever happened and be happy still... as a friend, i felt telling her the truth about what she is really trying to do would help her to move on, it didn't seem to help her much... in fact, all i got was snide remarks from other friends who said i shouldn't be harsh on her... who was there for me when i needed them? who was there to prevent me from moving on as soon as i could? Nobody.... i dun really see how i can be licking my own wounds and helping others to heal theirs with kind words... sometimes i wish i could be selfish... i could have just left her alone when she sms me that she broke up and gone to heal my own... but by telling her the things i went through, the struggles i had, i relived my own... and it's something which i have always wanted to bury donkey feets underneath the ground and never to mention again... because it is not something worth mentioning... not to even mention the guy in name... the mere mention of his name now kills my appetite.. i have learned to forgive and forget... but those were the darkest days till now which i really dun wish to mention... oh well, if she gets on fine now, then it's the best thing that can happen now..