met up with the gang last weekend to celebrate YB's bd.... before that I met J for shopping and she popped this question for me which caught me off guard... J had been very persistent about finding somebody to share her life with.. somebody to be there for her when she needs to talk to and all sorts... then i told her that love at this point is not important to me.. if it comes then it comes.. if it dun, then I'm perfectly fine too... she asked further if I chose career cos it's the norm and most wise answer... i pondered for a while.. career is important to me cos i felt i wanted to accomplish something in this aspect instead of just doing a job... while most ppl felt money is a motivating factor for them to work, i wanted to find something that i am passionate about... i haven't found it yet, which is why i want to carry on pursuing....
To me, other than love, there are much more to life... of course, like any women, I would feel lonely and feel that i need somebody around for me when i have something happy and unhappy to share.. somebody to share my inspirations with... that is truly a wonderful feeling... however, other than life, there's my family, my cats, my volunteer work, my friends... i dun actually feel the need to focus on love... if it comes, it comes... no need to find, no need to pray hard hard for it... afterall, how many of us have actually slowed down to enjoy the nature around us?
after that shopping trip, we met up with the gang for dinner at cafe cartel... XX turned up with his face looking so troubled... consistently on the phone or smsing.. hardly joining in the conversations that we are having... after the dinner, we proceeded to essential brew for tea, XX left to meet his gf... being concerned about his relationship with his gf, we began to question each other how much we know about their relationship... we had our doubts about how much of truth do we actually know... but yet we dared not ask XX upfront... maybe to you who is reading my blog, you might think it's just a bunch of ppl who is gossiping behind ppl's back... but honestly, if you ask me, i say it's concern... why do i say so? cos i realise that within our gang, ppl whom we dun really care about, we wouldn't even want to know if the guy got a gf or broke up or got married... to this friend I can only say.. is our friendship of 13 yrs not worth anything compared to a girl? i believe all of us only want you to be happy... if in front of us, you have to give us a rosy picture of everything when you are actually facing problems, wouldn't that be wearing a mask? isn't it very tiring?
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