I'm bored... it's been three days since the last long weekend and i'm officially out of job for three days..
i'm bored of spending my time alone...
i'm bored of waiting for weather to change for the better...
i'm bored of going shopping alone...
i'm bored of waiting for ppl to come online to chat...
i'm bored of ppl asking when am i going to look for a job...
i'm bored of looking at my cv and not knowing what i want..
i'm bored of listening to ppl telling me how free i am...
i might be out of job but that doesn't mean i'm the most appropriate person to organise gatherings, to find where to learn blading, to wait for other ppl to tell me when they are free to meet me, to do shopping for other ppl..
i'm at a cross junction now where i'm not sure where am i heading in my career... i want to find a focus and a direction in my life.. which is why i am sitting back and giving myself the space to do so.. not slacking, not sitting at home waiting for a job to drop from the sky.. but i wanna give myself time to listen to my tiny inner voice and rebalance myself again...i've been working from one job to another without knowing what do i seriously wanna do..should i go into hotel? should i do sales?should i go into marketing?should i stay where i am? is it a tough question to answer? at least for me..
i dun feel good when the rest of the world is working and i'm sitting at home watching tv, surfing and doing other stuff to free up my mind.. of course, i worry about money as well, esp when family is my priority.. of course, it's tough trying to find somebody who can truly understand... and it's tough getting ppl to listen cos either they are too busy or they simply think u are just finding excuses and you're not being proactive in searching for a job... but look at my job history.. the longest break i ever had was two weeks between a job? the shortest was just over a weekend... it's been work and work and more work... maybe it's good to slow down now and decide if this is the direction that i truly wanna head towards... no point knocking left and right, until you bleed like mad then u realise u are heading for the wrong direction...
oh well.. me and my grumblings...
4 comments:
I must have just missed you!! And we so could have a great chat! Maybe sometime this wknd....and I promise I won't bother you with questions about your job situation, or anything! Doesn't it suck to be bored?? Then you don't feel like doing anything, even if it's something you normally love to do! Well, I was going to update mine again, but now that it's 3am, I think I'm just going to go to bed, b/c sleepiness just hit me hard! Hope to talk to you soon!! And don't die of boredom over there k? I'm gonna need someone to chat with!!
do go w/ ur feel as of wat u wanna do. u cn still try out jobs as u r still young. dun fret...
dont bored dont bored... fren here fren here...
u have impt mission : code drink water
i can understand how u feel, sometimes i cannot be around, but i dun forget. Love: YY
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