Quietly...

I sat in the room quietly... all by myself...
with no wish to speak to anybody...
it's one of those moments...
you have crept back into my mind.. unknowingly...
all the memories have come back to me...

i woke up feeling pain in my heart...
i went through the day not knowing what i was doing..
despite the fact that my hands were doing something...
i sat thru the bus journey home and the song i knew so well came up...
the pain started again...

sometimes i wonder if you feel pain like me...
sometimes i wonder why do i still trust you like before..
i still feel the telepathy...
i still wish you good despite the pain...

friends crowd around me when i need them...
jean, shan, grace, mayling, sharon,vera,cubix, gary,elen... they were all there
helping me in one way or another to let me move on...
they had a burning question.. why was it so difficult?
i know it hurts all of them seeing me this way...
only cubix knew... my hidden feelings that spanned over 3 years..
3 years worth of feelings will be harder to let go...

i have developed a habit of buying flowers when i need a quiet moment
maybe, subconsciously, they are meant as replacement for the flowers you were supposed to get for me when i flew over...
quietly, time will heal...