Flight or fight?

Is it fright that I am encountering now as I sit down at Starbucks to go thru the stuff that I have to solve for my 2 upcoming events? It seem daunting... i remember this image that YB gave me when we were out shopping for his D&D clothes... he said the credit card machine which the sales use to swipe the card with is liken to a huge aligator with its mouth open, showing all its sharp teeth and just waiting for your card so that it can chomp on your credit limit...I laughed at the image that was conjoined in my brain... now.. that image is in my brain again... it's as if it's just seated right in front of me... baring its teeth and just waiting for me...

how do i go about working it thru? YB said the project is way too big for an exec to be handling on her own.. i say that is the culture of the work environment here so i gotta learn to adapt to it.. but of cos, having said so, it is also a good exposure... once u go thru it, u will know there is nothing to be afraid of and you will be more open to such things and also more confident in one way or another... it's not something that i can tell to my work colleagues or bosses... but i still do know how to ask for help when i need it... it's just me... or maybe something that somebody has taught me before.. "ask and i will do it for you.. if you dun ask, i will assume u can do it yourself."

of cos, there has been cases where i chose flight more than fight cos I am not confrontational by nature.. but i guess when it comes to work, I will need to condition myself to be more confrontational... afterall, if u cannot be an Alpha female, you will only be stepped all over in events.. so all my colleagues in events have been Alpha female in one way or another...and they are very good examples... esp when u work with male species who are quite MCPs... they are held in high esteem in their area of work and to prove them wrong, esp when u are a female will be quite detrimental to their ego...

fight on... i will fight to make my point, fight to stay on my feet and most of all, fight to stay on par with them...