Breathless...

My first event is finally over... but not without glitches... first my logistics person didn't not to show up, then the venue decided not to let my vehicles in and caused major delay and somebody decided to break his arm at my event. However, thankfully, the weather was so good that most of us got sunburnt... or is it just me?

Honestly, I thought I could have a short break before running back in the race... well, i guess not... we had some probs internally and honestly, it was a stupid mistake to have in the first place... while i brought it up before, it was turned to deaf ears and now it has become a big issue... but it is also through this prob that i saw how cold blooded some of these guys can be... i wondered to myself, who am i working for? a bunch of idiots who loves to play the blame game or ppl who loves to find fault with others?

I took a short break this morning...wanting to go visit uncle this morning... i haven't visited him since i worked hard at hot & breathless... he's been in hospital for a while and the last i heard, he is just buying time... he looks frail and can hardly talk... unlike the uncle that i knew almost ten yrs ago... the one who cooked fabulous food, loved a good laugh and shared my passion for good food... he knew his time is up... he can't see his grandchild grow up and nor hear him call him "ye ye"... and yet, while at the hospital, i kept having msgs from my bosses to go back to office for a stupid overdue department meeting... i wish i could lashed out at her.... i wish i could have just taken more time off to spend time with uncle... but i am so tied up at work that I am just not able to...

sometimes i wonder, which is more important? family or career? i fought hard for my career last time...only to see it crumble... i neglected my family at that point in time... only thinking of bringing in money for the family... until my uncle passed away then i realised how much they are important to me... now that i have the time for them, i have a irritating boss who doesn't see that as my priority... while i give all my best at work, it seems to her, it is not enough... so yes, working there sometimes can be breathless...

i wish for somebody to be by my side now... yes, i have to admit, i still miss you... no matter how much u have hurt me.... but time will heal wounds... but time will not erase my memories of you... btw, happy belated birthday...