i feel so much like a total wreck!

I'm tired and lacking of quality sleep... and every little thing irritates me to the core... it's been a long time since i cried over anything... it's tiring and i really dunno what's wrong... i dun wish ppl to question me what i am doing and dun wish ppl to tell me what is the best rational solution to solve the problem... for example, just like yesterday after the movie, i met up with my colleague and wanted to talk slightly more with her so i took the escalator down with her and the other friend of mine kept questioning me why did i not want to use the lifts to get to the basement while i had to waste time taking the escalator... i just wanted to talk to my colleague is that wrong? not logical in your sense? anyway, the colleague felt embarrassed and got off the next level saying she needed to get something... for me, i felt irritated... as it is, i have a lack of sleep and sick.. yet she keeps on talking loudly telling the whole world why i dumbly never took the lifts...

i guess the whole mood started when a friend started to have problems and yet, the way i see it is that she got into the trouble herself... she could have moved away but she chose not to.. maybe ppl would say she's dumb others would say she's loyal.. but whatever it is, i dun quite care... then trouble start to brew... another friend starts screaming for empathy for her troubled pregnancy and work starts to demand that i know whatever it is they require...and family, they start to require me to be at home every night without fail as if i have no night life but yet, there's nothing i can do at home with a wrecked pc and a bothersome brother... cat welfare starts to have their own probs with merchandise, with storage and lots of other stuff which i need to find a solution for... with all these tumbling down on me, who's the one to be understanding enough to be with me and just let me pour things out? no one.... everybody has got their own problems.. when they have problems, they come to me and yet when i have problems, they seem to have this mentality that kate can settle it herself since she is capable of so many things on her own.. she's fiercely independent and she's strong... but nobody realises that kate has got her weaker days.. days which she does nothing at home but drink.. days which she wishes somebody to listen to her but everybody is busy.... the best one she could ever talk to her cats......


P.S this post was supposed to be on sat 22nd of may.. thanks to the uncooperative computer.. it is posted up only on mon 24th of may