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I really did not know what to write for the title of this post... so just left it blank... afterall, life can be blank sometimes...

What sparked me to write this post was a simple question that was posed to me by Nitin... he's my india counterpart... on wed morning, i called him to check on the status of some partners and before i could do that, he asked me a very serious question... " so tell me, Kate, I heard you are leaving cos you dun like the job?" Apparently, Mayank has told him... not really a big issue but I found it hard to admit to Nitin that it is true, I would be leaving.... he seems to have an adverse reaction to that... maybe he is disappointed, maybe he is upset... i dunno and i didn't dare to ask...

Actually, I took one and a half day off to give myself a good break...I had been cooped up at work and I didn't know what was I doing at work...of course, I enjoyed the good working relationship with Nitin and Mayank and truly, if I were to go, I would miss them the most... they are the best counterparts that I have actually worked with, forever so obliging and forever so forgiving when I make blunders...I truly do not know what I really wanted to do in this job... I was neither here nor there... so I decided that I needed time to think about it.... to some of my friends, i was simply too free at work or having a good time or simply addicted to taking leave or MC... oh well, for ppl who dun understand me, if i work, i will give in 110%... i'm a workaholic... if i take leave or MC, something must be wrong...

Monday I was just at home... worried sick about how Nitin would cope and whether the partners would submit their files on time.. whether they can upload their files... Tuesday, I decided not to waste anymore time... I went to the beach... went to get my suntan as well as to really be alone.... so i grabbed my stuff and went to the beach.... stayed there for a couple of hours and truly it was a worthwhile trip... maybe it was the beach and the sun that probably cleared up my thoughts....

1. I have made up my mind about leaving my office... i loved my counterparts but could not capture the gist of the work and the virtually uncaring colleagues...
2. I didn't want to waste more time doing things that would give me a good salary but there's no way i can grow with...
3. I didn't want a job that is so desk bound, especially when i love the company of people...
4. By the age of 28, I wanna move out of my family... be financially independent...
5. I give myself to the end of this year to lose weight... at least 10kg.... * i promised myself and jason this and I wanna make it come true*

So from now onwards, i wanna stay focus on my dreams and move towards them... i remember this phrase, ' take small little steps to your goal, you will be reaching there soon' , so what my friends, you can do, constantly remind me of them... if i am eating carbs and sweets or desserts.. quietly nudge me and tell me... if i am spending money like water, quietly nudge me and remind me... i believe i will be there in due time...