Men I love in my life...

was talking to a colleague just now over the phone about this... * yes, i'm damn free in the office at times* made me ponder about the men i love in my life and why did i love them.... and by love i do not mean relationships but even family ties, friendship and all...

currently the top of my list is definitely my boy boy.... he's a man ok! He's DA man in my life... cos he's the one who greets me every morning when i wake up, when i get home and definitely somebody whom i'll say goodnight to before i get to bed.. we share food as well.. we love a good durian, with me eating the bulk of it and he taking a little bit... we love a good book as well.. sometimes he would sit in my lap and read with me as i look through my novels... of course, we spend the most of our time together sleeping in bed... covered up in a blankie and snoring away... rotting ourselves in bed...

Next would be my dad and my brothers... they have been the few men in the family.. they brought me up to be independent and to act like a man.. be decisive in things that mattered to me, be firm when i need to and be sensitive when tension arose... though i'm closer to my eldest brother compared to my second brother, we all get into trouble together... buy stuff for mother's day, celebrating each other's bd.. deciding on the cake for each other's bd... they may be not the vocal type of men, but their actions speak louder... if u ever find me being bad tempered or even been unreasonable, ask them.. they would display the same traits as well and sometimes even stronger than me... they are like bulls when they are angry... i'm..eerrrmmmm... maybe just a little rumble.... compared to them...

ooo.. now comes gary... he's my fav guy... of course, he's the only one that tolerate a whole lot of shit from me... rubbish that friends would never see of me... tears which friends never get a chance to see... and the best part of him... he bitches with me.. hehe... of course, we were a couple in the past and now we are best buds... life without him would be like a black and white tv... boring... imagine him sending me sms from US, asking me what to cook for dinner for his gf... weird questions that brings smile to your face....

so what actually is the man that i am looking for?

1.somebody who is courageous enough to say i love you... somebody who is courageous enough to ask if i can be his gf... well, at least my ex bf did.. so did gary... i'm traditional i guess in this aspect... i need the guy to express himself to me.. before i even make an acknowledgement that he is my bf, even if we are holding hands or hugging in public.. he needs to profess... of course, that's the first criteria...

2.secondly he needs to be mature and focused... age to me dun really matter but he needs to know what he wants.. i dun wish to take care of another kid when i am a big kid myself... i like to be taken care of..

3.of course, he needs to love animals.. not just meow meow or boy boy... but animals cos i love them.... hmmmm.. what else? basically that's about it.. money aside cos i earn my own keep but it would help if he earns his own keep as well but that's secondary... maybe such a courageous guy prob dun even exist.. :o(