When death happens...

how are you going to face up to it?

This morning, my laptop is certified dead...lugging my poor laptop, i walked to the IT mobile of my company where they told me if i wanted to evaluate the death cause of my laptop, they need at least three days and 50 dollars of charge to my department.... *shit* decided not to let them touch my poor laptop... lugged my laptop to the customer service center... and the lady certified it is a hard disk crash... five working days for fixing it and my boss is not even willing to pay for express service... *grump*

On my way back to office, mom called to say uncle has passed away.... i was rather disturbed about it... took half a day off work cos i felt i was not able to face up to the boss's demands and keep the issue to a personal level...took a cab to meet elaine to pass her the movie tickets.. was listening to my ipod in the cab and was crying away.... i think the truth finally sank in... elaine got me a pretty orange african daisy...*thank you!* after that, i walked for the longest period of my time... went from standard chartered building to boat quay and walked further to dunno where till i realise it's time to go home... imagine me in my heels and doing that... friends would tell u that i hate to walk in my heels.. hate to be under the hot sun in them esp with my skirts on... i think this is my way of letting go.... accept that i need some time alone and just walk with my ipod playing and stuck in my ears, blasting loud....

going to go to the funeral now... now sure of what to expect... would i expect his children to be crying or them to be unconcerned about the whole matter? will update later...