concern but overdone....

i have actually wanted to post all the long overdue pics online tonight... but i think i dun have the mood... too tired and too many things going through my mind...

a friend told me that she's looking for a job now... due to the overwhelming concern of her friends, she's feeling a bit pressured... ppl have been asking her to lower her expected salary, dun be so picky blah blah blah...

but finding jobs are tough, ppl... not becos the market is shrinking, in fact the market is expanding as per the last report i saw... but sometimes, when u really wanna focus on the job that u really want, u just gotta push every other thing out of your mind and focus on it... thus, job searching can be tough... of course, if you are doing a specific job and u enjoy that job, u move on in that aspect, it's easier to find jobs... but what if u want a career switch?

i contemplated to resign today.. typed my letter, printed it out and chucked it into an envelope.. i was just one step away from handling it in... why was i so hesistant? i can almost imagine what others would react once they hear that i've resigned.. "what?? aiyoh!! why???" i can almost hear it ringing in my ears... then comes the issue of completion bonus... while we were promised a completion bonus, who knows if it will ever come? i'm just one and a half months away from my whole completion.. why am i giving it up now? it's not like me... cos i dun wish to be handholding a bunch of people when my boss dun even let us have the reins... imagine your boss holding your reins while u are holding somebody else's reins.. a bit dumb and i refuse to be part of this dumb activity..

anyway, shall go and seek wise men's advice about whether should i go or not.. afterall, i need a new start, a new job, a new environment..