Thursday, December 23, 2004

affairs of the heart

It's xmas time again... my fav season... and gary knows it...apparently he took leave during this week and took some time to spend some time with Mabel... he cooked and got presents for her... and guess what? he didn't get me anything! *pouting look* how could you forget to buy present for your first gf? OMG!!! You owe me one big one! Wait till you come back....

so our dear friend gary is free and has too much time on his hand... so he decides, his phone bill is not high enough... he decides to call me late in the night to chat.... ok, gary lim, i shall entertain you one night and no more... and please, do not ask me the profound questions late in the night the next time u call....

if you are curious about what did he ask... let me tell u... he asked why i would not accept XXX or even think about starting a relationship with XXX.... and mind you, it's like 2am in singapore... told you before already that he cannot give me the security I need... the chemistry is just not perfect and not right... get it?I'm not in a rush to get into a relationship.. i wanna find a person who can have the chemistry with me... who understands me and accepts me... not somebody who just pops the question....

came back from lunch today and had a pleasant surprise... msn messages from edward.. :o) brightened up my day... I missed him loads... missed his letters and him telling me about his days at work and all... really happy to know that he's sending me something via post... couldn't wait to receive it... he used to send me little surprises in his mail to me and they've all made me so happy and so pampered.. always waiting anxiously for his letters to come and to see what has actually happened in his life.. we've lost touch when he shifted to England... now that we're in touch again, I'll definitely make sure that I dun lose you again... he's always had a place in my heart.. some place that surpasses most of my friends and my ex boyfriends... and nobody can replace this person in my life... * I'm not kidding *
P.S gary, you dun stand a chance... so dun complain...

things are slow in the office... xmas celebrations are just tomorrow and everybody is not in a mood to work... we had a great time eating and drinking these days... had lots of food to share... and as usual, i get teased with one of the consultants.... not a good thing... especially when he is single and i am too... everybody thinks we're compatiable.... what do i feel about it? dunno... lots of things have been happening so i'm not even sure what i'm feeling now... one thing i know is that once gary sees this, he will call me immediately.... *irregardless of the time* maybe after talking to him, I would know how I feel towards him... but one thing for sure, i wouldn;t start anything in the office... it simply has too much pressure... no way...

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