It's the time of the year again.... :o(
Been staying at home these days looking for a job... looking for a career change and a permanent one...things aren't going smoothly and of course, no matter how faithful you are in your religion and how confident you are of the market, you lose confidence once in a while... and yes, it's that period now...
I always make precautions about changing jobs and all so i've always got enough savings to last me at least 6 months without a job... even if it means supporting my family... now there's nothing... one family member owed the credit company money and I dug into my savings to pay off the whole lump sum... i didn't want to incur anymore interest and cause my family anymore worries.. especially during the CNY period... I want them to have a happy new yr and leave the rest of the worrrying to me... now, i'm just left with my last month of salary to survive... :o(
Due to the debts, grumblings start to happen at home, fights start to incur and unusual stuff start to happen.. all adding to my stress... as if i'm not stressed enough of not being able to get a job... in front of my friends, i look as if i'm fine but honestly, i'm breaking down... everybody says to wait till after CNY before the market picks up again... oh well, it's another wait again.... friends have been keeping a lookout for me.. especially Elaine and Verg... but sometimes, it's a missed opportunity... missed the openings for a job in Tuas.. missed the openings in UBS... hopefully i dun miss the designated one... oh God, i'm grumbling way too much now... give myself one more night to be sad and grumpy before i turn up for work cheerful again... :o(
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Did not get to say last goodbye.. well seems like we are
being told to leave one by one.. my turn should be soon. I can feel it in the air. I think I know how you are feeling now. I felt it when I tried to put myself in yr shoes. I suddenly felt like someone told me I am useless. I need to be reassured so I spoke to my other half. She say "You are not useless. it is just people don't see how useful you are bec. someone is blocking yr light". Well now as a friend, I am telling you.. "you are not useless OK.. they did not give you a chance to show your colors." They just like to
hide behind their own deficiencies and blame on someone else if they cannot do their job. Well remember God knows. He is who we are to please not these mere mortals. OK we are NOT useless not matter what they say.
So take care, pray and trust in God. PS I sit in Cifu's room. Surprise!
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