I heard more from her last night... as I sat down at Macdonalds trying to complete my work at about 12 midnight... i stared at the screen for a long long time... not knowing what to respond other than the normal ok and alright... i tried to use the most rational me to find a reason for whatever she has been telling all these while... i tried hard to dismiss it... i really did try... i heard what she has to say.. i didn't choose to defend or further explain anything...i left the conversation... i needed to be alone...
I must have walked for a long time on the road... my vision blurred as my tears flowed... yes, the hurt is real... so real that it hurts badly... real bad this time... have i been too silly all these while? you chose not to answer my question on msn the other time and i have guessed it should end up this way... yet i chose not to force an answer out of you... i felt you were old enough to answer to me honestly... i dun want to hear things from a third party's mouth.. i wanted you to tell me.. be it good or bad... it's tiring to fight a lonely battle... prob even so when you have rumors of your general have the intentions to move to another army... it's a lonely battle...
here i am now, broken and exhausted... where are you now?
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